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Rightio. All focus on Thursday now, all focus.
Ive got some good news, and some bad news.
Good being my workload is somewhat lesser, Ive accepted postponing and turned it into an artform and I loved and finished Half Life 2 (late, I know, but thats how it goes).
Bad being; I havent done nearly enough. I have no job for the summer (not from lack of trying though, so Im not beating myself up over it) which means working for parents on Gotland.
In my head Im trying to paint this image of me being out in the nature, working hard, coming back to the city looking like Health personified. Yeah. Tanned, fit, rested.
(pause for laughs)
Its going to be hell, kids. Hell. Boss? Parents. Home? Parents. Salary? Peanuts. Health? I have echsema on my hands, and Ill be working in a kitchen. You do the math. Social Life? Nada. And yup, my darlings, probably little to no internet.
Im trying to look at the bright sides, focus on school work and being grateful for what I do have, and at least I have a job but you know.. My parents are known for one thing, which is screwing me over. When it comes to business and money, I cant trust them, and even if I could, I have no idea how to pay rent for May and June. These thoughts, with other things Im trying hard not to think about, tends to come at night.
And so, children, it is time for a confession (seeing how mostly "safe" people are reading this, if any)..
Im back to the state I was in 6 years ago. Sleeping disorders, trouble eating, trouble keeping food, sharp stomach pains and non-functioning mind.
ONLY reason why Im posting this here is that I need to put it down somewhere, you know, and I cant deal with some folks around me being too concerned or crazy about it, cause I know itll pass. Ill be fine. I just need to get through this.

Oh I cant wait til I get to write an upbeat post, something to match the song of the day:
Suburban Kids with Biblical Names - Funeral Face (such an odd song.)